Thursday, June 21, 2007
I just don't do it right. My kids argue, they refuse to cooperate, they openly defy me, they fight with each other and me in public, and I cannot reason with them at all. I admit I have a volitale personality and I tend to go from 0 to screaming in about 1 second flat but I swear they not only know the correct button to PUSH, they are sitting on it. I have 3 kids. I want them to be productive, helpful, happy, content, accomplished kids now and responsible, productive, happy adults. At this rate one of us is not even to going to live to see that adulthood. I feel awful when I blow up at them. I find it very difficult to reason with them when all they do is tune me out and ignore EVERY blasted thing I say.
I am constantly comparing myself to other parents I know. Their children are always polite. Their children help each other and do not fight with each other in public. How do other parents do THAT.
I am thinking my attitude is not helped by the fact that I have been burning both ends towards the middle with running said kids hither and yon, no one is getting to bed at a reasonable time, we are all tired and I am sick. Hopefully tomorrow will bring some miracle suprise like completely compliant and helpful children, a clear calendar, an unstuffy nose, no cough and the strawberry jam already made and in the freezer. Yeah, I don't think it will happen either.
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Just write. Stream of conciousness. Doesn't matter if it even makes sense. Who
cares if it flows. Just start. Just type whatever pops into your brain. Go.
She says the reason for this challenge is that she is in a blog funk. Well, I am sure that, given the fact that my last entry was June 6, it is obvious that I am in a funk too. My main problem is that I never know what to blog. Is it interesting to anyone but me? Probably not. Is it worth documenting? Again, probably not. Should I do it anyway so that I get more comfortable getting my thoughts out of my head? Yep absolutely. So she says to follow the stream of conciousness so here it goes.
Silence and solitude, even at 10 o'clock at night I can not find it. DS(3) will.not.go.to.bed. Took a long nap today so guess what? Yep not tired. Drivin' me crazy. Crazy I tell you. Just once I would love to come out here, sit down with my laptop and enjoy......silence. Of course I would have to turn off the TV to get actual silence. I don't think I can do that. Ace of cakes is on. That is a cool show. I wish I could bake and decorate half as good as Duff and his team do. Those cakes are amazing. Speaking of cake, tomorrow is DH's birthday. I am a terrible planner. Or really the issue is that I am a terrific procrastinator! Yep, you guessed it, no cake. What is a girl to do when the DH is getting a year older, we are going to dinner with the parent sets and there is NO CAKE? Uhhhhhh, first panic. Then realize that tomorrow one can call the restaurant and see if they can create a special, last minute, dessert for me. Hmmm, yep I will try that. If that does not work? Off to the store I go to pick up a cake mix. After all there is nothing that is more important about a birthday when you are already in your 30's.... dare I say mid-30's than cake. After all as the 4 yo on TV just informed us, "sugar keeps you awake!" LOL. So how do I swerve this over to another topic? Just go I guess. I love college sports. My sport of choice at this very moment is college baseball. Particularly "my" school's college baseball team which is one win away from the championship series in the College World Series. The only thing standing in our way? An annoyingly persistent UC Irvine team that will.not.go.away. They came back on Arizona State tonight in the bottom of the 8th inning with 4 runs to tie the game and force extra innings. They finally won, downing, arguably, the best team in the tournament 8-7. It took 13 innings to win last night. They are persistent. They are like Oregon State, "my" team, was last year when they won 7(!!) elimination games to take home the national championship. Frankly our fans don't know quite what to do with ourselves since our backs are not currently against the wall with a win or go home philosophy. All of that could come to an end tomorrow night. UC Irvine is going to be one tough opponent. But their pitchers are tired, they have played two long games back to back and we had a day of rest. Can we do it? Tune in to ESPN2 tomorrow at 4 CDT to find out.
Interesting? It was to me. Maybe blogging is not my "thing". Should I quit? Maybe. But I am not ready to throw in the towel yet. Until the next time......
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
Only 6 more days, only 6 more days, only 6 more days.
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
GO BEAVS!!!!! We need 2 wins to get back to Omaha. What a great weekend of baseball.